I don't know if I'm depressed but I just want it to be over

[sunflowerbloom]

I've had the worst year of my life.
My mental health was already in tatters.
My mum died a few months ago.
I've been dumped for someone else by someone who doesn't care about me.
I'm not well myself and today I have lay in bed all day and cried.
I don't want to get washed ,I don't want to go out
I want to sleep and not feel this feeling
I don't know If I'm depressed but I'm scared of this sadness.
It's not just sadness it's this overwhelming feeling I can't control.
I smile with my friends but it's not real
I'm not happy
I hate it

Sorry you feel like this. I recognise this as similar to my depression. I went to my GP and I take fluoxetine as an anti depressant. It has kept me alive. Please contact your GP, you don’t have to feel Like this.
Sending un-mumsnetty hugs and a reminder that things do get better

You absolutely need to tell your GP this.
There is no reason to feel as you do.

Do you have friends you can be honest with...?

I’m so sorry to hear that you’re feeling this way. It sounds like you have been through so much and it’s understandable that you’re struggling. I think it’s really brave being honest with yourself about how you’re feeling in this post and I think sharing this with someone in your life who you trust or a counsellor or GP sounds like it could be helpful so people can support you to start to feel better. There will be people in your life who appreciate you greatly and I’m sure want to be there for you. Hope things start to feel better. Sending love and care x

It could be depression . Speak to the gp if you feel that might help. When I've been particularly down I do find that having a shower, brushing my hair etc really does help to feel just a bit better

Hi @sunflowerbloom I was thinking about you and this thread over the weekend and wondered how you were feeling today.

It sounds like you are please reach our to your gp.