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Feel like I’m going mad.

11 replies

Ikeablanket · 18/12/2020 17:04

Hi all,

I have never posted on here but I just desperately need to get all of this out.

I want you all to understand that I love my parents and my family. They are wonderful people and I love them so dearly so please don’t demonise or victimise them.

When my little baby son was just 9 days old, our landlady decided she wanted to sell our property. She came around and just announced it like it was nothing. She needed us to move out as soon as possible so she could sell up. My husband and I were devastated. This is the third time in 7 years that this has happened to us, each lying landlord worse than the last. My husband and I both have earn good salaries. We don’t smoke, we don’t do drugs and we don’t drink a lot. We pay our rent every month without fail. We don’t scam the government, we pay our taxes, we don’t claim benefits. We have always kept our properties in immaculate condition and have often done work on them using our own funds. She knew I was pregnant and yet she waited until after our son was born to make her decision.

Long story short, due to covid/new baby/stress of recovering from an emergency c-section we decided that we simply couldn’t face the rental market again. We decided that we would move in with my parents, temporarily, and continue to save a deposit for our own house.

The problem is, my parents have some strange habits. I understand fully that it is their house and they are being unbelievably generous by letting us live here, entirely free of charge, but it gets so unbelievably frustrating.

So. Here we go. House rules:

  • Taking a shower. Whenever you get out of the shower, it may be cleaned immediately. One cleaning cloth is used to clean the exterior ledge of the shower, another is used to clean the interior shower tray and then a Karcher window vac is used to clean the doors/cubicle of the shower. The Karcher must be emptied after every use.
  • No toilet brushes. You must use bleach, water and a jug to flush away any marks in the toilet.
  • Laundry is done 6 days a week, sometimes every day of the week. It is dried on 2 electric clothes horses stood by an electric radiator. The dehumidifier has to be set up and packed away every single time you put wet clothes out. You must also pack away the dining table and chairs every time you put the clothes out because there is nowhere in the house they can go and no room in the dining room (their house is tiny.)
  • You cannot cook hot food if wet laundry is out (so that is most days.) There is no frying pan or wok and you cannot use oil, garlic or onions. They have a ceramic hob but you are not allowed to use it. If you try and use it, you are interrogated and my dad will go on and on and on about how you should use the microwave oven instead.
  • You are not allowed to use the kitchen counter to rest anything on. It must be covered in up to 20 place mats before you can put anything down on it. This also applies to the dining table and the coffee table. You then have to clean all of the mats and put them back in the drawer.
  • You must wash up everything as soon as you have used it. You have to do your washing up before you can sit down to eat your food. You can’t leave things to air dry, they have to be dried and put away immediately.
  • All pots must be thoroughly rinsed and cleaned...before you clean them. So that you don’t make the washing up water dirty.
  • Bedding and towels are washed several times a week. My dad keeps track of how long our bedding has been on for and will comment if it’s been a bit longer than a week.

On top of this, they argue constantly, as they have done my entire life. From dusk till dawn it’s shouting and sniping and nastiness to each other. Then my dad will complain to me for hours on end about how much he despises my mum. I’ve just stopped listening and now I sit in silence.

I’ve suffered with anxiety and depression in the past and I can’t cope with hearing stories about child abuse at all. They are my worst trigger and it’s so hard pretending that it doesn’t bother me. At least once a day, my dad logs into yahoo and reads out all the worst news headlines he can find. He often goes into graphic detail. He always seem to be able to find a story about a baby being murdered or abused and will just read it out louder and louder if you ask him to stop. This will usually end in a fit of rage and screaming and shouting as he rants about the lack of justice in our country or how criminals deserve to be put to death.

You can’t talk to them. The slightest comment is perceived as a huge insult and leads to an enormous argument and then being ignored for days on end.

There are no bedroom doors. There is no privacy. I don’t get a minute to myself. It’s destroying my relationship with my husband. I get criticised all day long, every day.

There is a list as long as my arm and I feel too upset and emotional to keep typing now. I’m sorry everyone, I just feel so unhappy.

OP posts:
Bumpsadaisie · 18/12/2020 17:55

So sorry to read this. It sounds awful, especially the no bedroom doors.

Your parents sounds difficult - no doubt they are also supportive and kind and have many good qualities, and you are right to be mindful of those, but you can't live with them any longer. No-one could live like this.

You need to move out. The possibility of another mean landlord is real, but even if that happens it is much better than this! Even if you have to pay a lot of money to rent, it is better than this, which is going to drive you out of your mind.

Make plans with your husband straightaway to move. You don't want to bring up your little boy in this stress and angst.

Bumpsadaisie · 18/12/2020 17:58

PS the rules are bonkers but I could put up with fitting in with them if otherwise there was warmth, love, respect and privacy.

But the emotional temperature in the house must be awful to live with. No wonder you have depression and anxiety if you grew up with all that.

Aquamarine1029 · 18/12/2020 18:00

Op, you knew who your parents are yet still moved in anyway. I'm sorry everything is so miserable, but you need to acknowledge to yourself that you've made a huge mistake and move out. Forget about saving up for a house because it's just not worth it. Your mental health and marriage will be destroyed if you stay there.

justgeton · 18/12/2020 18:01

As much as I understand the financial advantages of living with them, I think I'd rent the first available suitable (bearable) property.

ChizzleMeNizzle · 18/12/2020 18:18

What Aquamarine said.

Thephantom · 18/12/2020 18:41

Sorry to hear about what you are going through OP, it must be very difficult for you and your dh. I can see why your parents are sniping and arguing all the time -they must be very frustrated and tired of the whole routine they have created for themselves (and you) and not even realise it. You need to move out, your mental health is more important than a deposit for a house. I don't know how old you ds is now, but if you are still at your parents when he starts to walk, then there might be more rules. I know of someone who used to tell his little girls off for jumping and running at home as he thought they were damaging the floor Hmm..Also you may want to cook different kinds food for ds on the hob instead of always using the microwave..its ridiculous to have to listen to a lecture each time you use the hob. You need to move out as soon as you can

Londonsuffolkmummy · 18/12/2020 19:03

Are we related?

Londonsuffolkmummy · 18/12/2020 20:12

Seriously my mum is the same I had to live with her for a while I wasn’t allowed to cook and if I made toast she would say it stunk of curry I love my mum but she made my life hell whist I lived with her. I was only allowed to wash my clothes once a week on a 30 bearing in mind I had a baby. My mum does everything on your list apart from the karcher although the bathroom and bathroom floor must be washed after every use.

Yep the placemat thing Wtf

No leaving curtains closed apparently people will think she’s running a b&b

I could write a book of all the rituals and rules I’m glad it’s not just my mother

No walking on the floor because the floors creak bad

No doors are to be closed ever yet she can close her door when sending me to Coventry

Bath water no word of a lie was about 10cm in height and I would have to use my brothers bath water and hers and I wasn’t allowed to heat it up

I could go on

Honestly my advice I’d leave you can’t change people like this

The whole abuse in the news crap I got that too along with what every kids name was in the paper mum I don’t actually give a shit

Londonsuffolkmummy · 18/12/2020 20:13

I wasn’t allowed to cook so I lived off quorn cocktail sausages

Someone1987 · 19/12/2020 16:39

That sounds a very toxic place for you to be. Were they always like this when you were growing up? Do they have mental health issues, as some of their behaviours appear concerning?

DianaT1969 · 19/12/2020 16:58

You need to move back to rented accommodation. I doubt your parents changed to this overnight. But you probably forgot how difficult they are to live with. Lesson learned. Move on.

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