Don't know what to do

[GemGemma]

I have chronic depression & anxiety for 20 + years. I've been through the appointments Dr's medications, time & time again. There's no point going bk. Don't think my body can handle any other medications, last two had me suicidal depressed. Yet I'm struggling, I don't know how to get from one end of the day to the next, I'm a lone parent, I have to. But it's just getting harder, I'm so tired. I feel totally disconnected from my body, my thinking & mindset is push on push through, keep going etc... Yet I can't seem to do the things I want to do. V simplistic example - I want tea, but I can't make myself get up & get it.

Don't know what to do. I don't want to be like this. It's so hard.

It sounds like you are having a major depressive episode. I had that and couldn't even get a glass of water.
Be very honest with your gp ASAP - maybe read them the OP - ask for a psychiatrist referral.
There will be an antidepressant that can help. I had to try 3 before going into Venlafaxine (an SNRI) and even with that I've had to increase the dose 3 times.
I still get a bit depressed but not suicidal and nothing like I was.

But you have to give antidepressants several weeks to work plus time to get over the side effects.
Once you are on the right one & it works it's amazing!!
From everything looking dark it's like life is great.

Please phone the go for a referral today. If that gp is no help then ask to speak to another gp x