In a bad place right now. Just think what's the point anymore, what is the actual point in life? All I have is stress and worry and don't even enjoy life anymore. I've had a terrible 2 years since husband left me, I'm not over it and I'm finding it hard. Watching him so happy having 2 baby sons ( ones a toddler and the other she's pregnant with) with another woman and I'm just here struggling to get over it after he left me suddenly and straight into her bed. I can't completely cut him out because of the children and i just think I'll never be happy again. My OCD ( since childhood) has playing up real bad, I'm getting bad intrusive thoughts, think f I've hurt my youngest baby girl ( I haven't) but these intrusive thoughts as so bad lately they make me think I've done the things that I haven't and then I feel Guilty.
I didn't have the best childhood, so then my adulthood has turned bad and I think I'm such a drain on society I may as well just relieve everyone and go. Maybe I deserve my husband leaving me for someone else, maybe I deserve everything I get. In 32 years one, and got nothing to show for my life. Maybe my ex is right i just 'pop out kids'