I starting to wonder if this isn't actually okay.
Previous history of mild depression had cbt all okay. Pnd post birth again cbt and seemed okay. Covid hit which made it worse again, started exercise programme and its easing a bit.
All that relatively normal for me but I've noticed my anxiety is through the roof.
I'm okay ish in daytime but at night I catastrophe, constantly check on ds to see if still breathing or okay, worry he will get hurt or that something awful might happen. I cry a lot at night alone before sleep.
I'm also overly anxious about money and not having a buffer, which is sensible I know but I worry I'm overly anxious about it.
I don't want to pass this onto my son.
I own my home and have a steady middle management job which I work in full time, so I generally cope okay ish.
Is there anything I can do to reduce this worrying as its getting out of hand?