Don't know whether to go back to work or not

[cantgetoutofmyhead]

I was signed off work almost two weeks ago with depression and anxiety. I'm due back Wednesday, and I just can't face it. Work isn't really the issue (I don't know what is!), but it doesn't help and I just don't think I can fake it.

I've been prescribed sertraline and I don't even know if that's what I need. Maybe this is just me now? Not wanting to see people, lazy, and disliking myself for good reason.

Has anyone decided that they aren't actually depressed, but have just changed as a person?

I feel like a fraud.

It doesn't sound like you are a fraud, it sounds like you are in a very difficult place.

I think you need to request another sick note. You need and deserve support, what medical help are you getting at the moment?

Thanks for replying @farmfreshmilk

Just the sertraline and sleeping tablets. The doctor said the waiting time for counselling is ages, which is fine, because I don't want to talk.

She suggested things like mindfulness, but it makes me panicky to focus on the breathing. I will try again though. She also suggested self help books, a gratitude journal, exercise, etc. I have been trying to go for walks, but it's more out of guilt than want.

Doctor has scheduled a call with me in another two weeks.

She originally suggested a month off and I said that was too long. Will I need to go back and see her or will she give me another just by speaking to me tomorrow, do you think?

Hopefully she can sign you off for longer tomorrow, is much easier to do these things from a phone call. it can take a few weeks for medication to kick in, and longer if you need to tinker with the dosage.

Is great that you have a supportive GP, makes sure you let her know how you are feeling.