I’m so lost and confused & I don’t know what to do.
I’m 18 weeks pregnant with my second child and about to move into our first home (have rented until now). Our eldest is three and wonderful but exhausting. I work three days per week and my husband is working constantly, Monday - Saturday 7-7 most days. I had PND after the birth of my son so I guess have had niggling anxiety in the back of my mind that the same with happen with this next baby. I actually felt very well for the first 16 weeks, but for the last couple of weeks somethings been brewing. It all came to a head this week when I broke down to my mum and said I’m not feeling well at all.
Probably doesn’t help that we are in financial difficulty at the moment and have been arguing nearly every day to the point of discussing separating. Luckily we have had a few chats and cuddles and taking each day at a time. My OH is very supportive when it comes to my mental health but this feels different. There is a looming feeling of hopelessness I just can’t see a light at the end of the tunnel. I mean, we have another baby coming and buying our first home, yet here I am having suicidal thoughts? I just don’t understand.
I’ve spoken to my GP who has recommenced me on sertraline but it’s only day three at 25mg so it’s not doing much at the moment. I’m also under the perinatal team who will assess me next week. If I get to next week? That’s how low I am feeling.