Sorry everyone. I just need to write it all down and get some perspective, as I feel so shaky and like I'm going to be sick.
Have been alone with the boys all day as bigger boy was too tired/still a bit ill for school.
He's been horrid and angry all day, can't help it but it gets to me.
I had a Dss interview/examination yesterday to establish whether I still am depressed enough to get benefit, and it has made me feel horribly vulnerable and afraid in case they decide I'm not when it is all very real to me at present.
I've had a nasty seller disagreeing with a dispute on ebay over a vile, horrible buggy that arrived today, and I'm afraid I'll lose my £50. Plus they gave me a negative in reply to mine.
I can't deal with confrontation and that's why I feel so sick and shaky.
I'm trying to find a parcel I sent that was delivered to the wrong address, but at least my buyer is being nice about that...thank god for tracking.
I'm still alone tonight with both boys and can't seem to get a grip and calm down. It is horrible, they are both being good and sweet at last but I'm just a quivering wreck.
Thankyou if you got this far, just don't know what to do to calm down.