Ok so life’s never been easy , but I suppose everyone has their rubbish
Just this year .. everything I’ve ever known, everything I held dear ... my health, my relationship, job... my beautiful children
Gone .... battles with social services and losing
Today I did debate just filling my car up and seeing how far it got me
Then dissapear
I’ve never felt so lost and alone and haven’t a clue what to do to feel better or dare I say it ,, normal
I cry for my babies , the pain is is worse than any knife could inflict and the shame of all that’s happened is torture
When you try to rebuild a life yet get told your finding a job and trying to live is you hiding from the issues yet your job brings you true joy and focus
When all you’ve done is love your children and do everything you can for them yet are told you can only see them supervised... based on assumption... not evidence
When every word you say is twisted
And there is no one to share the burden
Because you’ve been isolated
Made to be unable to trust anyone and when you find yourself sat in your car sobbing in pure pain and not knowing how the heck to fix this
When your heads saying you just can’t see a way forward
No one feels you are a good person or deserve to be loved or even hugged
What did I ever do to deserve to be labelled this awful wicked person when I’ve only ever acted in kindness and with absolute goodness
Help