Am I right to refuse GP recommended medication?

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I’ve had a terrible time with AD, they’ve made my mood worse and contributed to a period of mania in 2015. Psychiatrist put me on a mood stabiliser. I don’t know if I can name medication?

Anyway fast forward to 2020 and the tool it’s taken on my health. I think I was in a period of mania (multiple sex and getting pregnant
on purpose).

Now I’m depressed. Asked my GP and community mental health team for help. Still waiting for CMHT to give me the medication review (been 4 weeks) and my GP wants to start me on Cit___ (won’t write the full name).

I have issues with my GP starting me on an SSRI - I’ve had a bad reaction that resulted in mania/wanting to cause harm to myself.

I just feel like I’m not getting the right support. I don’t trust my GP to prescribe a medication, especially one type that I’ve had serious bad affect on (SSRI). My other GP said she didn’t want to prescribe because she said I needed extra specialist support and I agreed. I was also supposed to be getting help from the mental health nurse but because my address and GP were in different areas my local mental health team wouldn’t help (hence I have a new GP).

Any ideas of how I can get help?

Also before people ask - I’ve tried in vain to get talking therapies. I’m sick of actually asking and being denied.

You can name medication on here. Otherwise I'm a bit confused about what you had the reaction to?

I’d start calling GP and CMHT and pushing for the medication review. It can be done over the phone with a psychiatrist. Don’t take any medication until the review. Because what if you start on one, but psychiatrist thinks you should be on another? Then you lose weeks stepping down from the first medication before you can start the right one the psychiatrist recommends.