i bloody hate being a mother today

[NappiesLaGore]

am not really depressed, but am v volatile feeling so ive put this in here tomminimise judgemental responses.

ds3 is a farkin psycho. dss ditto.
had enough.
am ashamaed of self for feeling that i just wanna sell them all on ebay and go hide under a rock somewhere. somewhere with a good bar.

agggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[attempts to unclench]

and yes, i apologise for my offensive terminology.

i am feeling offensively terminal. not an excuse but there you are.

Nearly bedtime, Nappies.

Really empathise, going through similar here.

Wanted to walk out earlier and leave them to it.

ambercat
me too.

custys good for times like this. her and vodka.

1 hour and 40 mins til bedtime, then i get out my stash of choc and wine

i have had a really bad day with ds he is 2 on wedensday and it's like he has been invaded by the tazmanian devil my baby has turned into a monster overnight........so i am going out and getting shit faced and i dont care that its monday in the morning and i have to get dd ready for school and go to college.....i will in the morning tho

oh fawkeoff... enjoy your nigth out! (and may the force be with you in the morning)

fawkeoff, am very have a drink for me!

i admire people who had the wit and forsight to have 1 or evn limit themselves to 2 babies.
3 is just mad. how am i ever to get a moments peace with three? or do anything spur ofthe moment?

I totally know what you mean, I had a REALLY bad day on Friday with a teething, grumpy DS and a leaking radiator and plumbers in the house leaving their dangerous tools lying about and I texted DH saying I feel like running away.

I didn't run away but on saturday spent the day with a friend who is single and childfree and felt sooooo envious of her lifestyle, she works part time, gets up at 8am (i get up before 6am every day) goes to the gym, has a leisurely uninterupted lunch, goes to work and then usually goes out in the evening. She admits she does get lonely at times and broody, but then she spends a bit of time at my house and sees me with my eyebags and no time for myself and feel glad she's not me! Sometimes I wish I wasn't me either!

Today has been better, had a long lie in this morning thanks to DH and he has also taken the kids off my hands for most of the day so feel a bit refreshed. Back into the fray tomorrow though, but only 1 week til half term.

Sorry for the ramble but I know just how you feel and you are NOT alone!

im a farkin crap mother. they deserve better.

im like a tightly wound coil. feel like i'll blow and destroy the world any minute. but feel so frikkin weary at the same time.

thx oneplus... your posthelps. [weak smile]

Oh I totally empathise with you here, and I only have two!
Being a mum can be SO hard, and there's only so much fighting, screeching, answering back, tantrums, mess etc etc, that you can cope with, is there not!
I lost it badly yesterday, after my two fighting, destroying their bedroom, DS2 crushing a washing tablet all over my floor, and then spilling yoghurt drink over carpet!
I read the book "When Mum turned into a monster" to my boys today, and thought "Blimey, this book is about me!!"

It can be like that sometimes. You won't be as bad as you think you are and it will get better as they get older. or you can always do what I did - realise about 3 hours continuous time with children was my limit desire and fix their care accordingly - win win all round. Nicer me. Nicer for them.

I feel like a crap mother too at times and I feel sorry for my kids having me instead of some lovely, cheery, endlessly patient, creative mother. I sometimes feel I'm in the wrong job but unfortunatley I can't hand in my notice and look for something else!