My eldest daughter was born at weeks weeks. She had a relatively easy journey through NICU, objectively. But her labour was fast and it didn't allow me any time to process it. And despite complications being minimal, she still got sepsis, and despite her being well now I'm still plagued by the memories. She's 6. I've just had my third child. All three were premature. I've been through a divorce in the middle. I've sought therapy. I'm taking medication. But nothing can lessen the trauma. Will I ever move on from it? Or will it always me there as this awful experience to haunt me?