Hey Mums,
Hope everyone is doing well.
My week has not been so great, my job contract was terminated this week-due to work performance. I was shocked but I knew I wasn't happy in the job, I also wasn't getting paid enough, plus I knew it was not really a career I wanted to go further in. After the tears and low moods and the way I feel so much of a failure. I know some of absences was to do with me having a quite a bit to drink and waking up late(this was when my daughter was staying with her dad) but obviously alcohol was a coping mechanism for my anxiety disorder. At the moment I'm lucky enough to have just started treatment with a therapist for my anxiety and I'm now hoping to cut alcohol out for a while to see if it will help my mood. I find my anxiety goes out out of control when things like me being fired, happen then I end up thinking about everything. I'm moving out( which is bad timing) as now I'll have to look for another job, however im trying to remain positive. Today I felt soo anxious because I had to go back to my office to drop equipment, my best friend came with me and we went for a meal after, I felt so anxious during the meal I didn't even feel like eating much. I made sure to have a soft drink instead of opting for an alcholic beverage to help with the nerves. Now I'm up and finding it difficult to sleep and I just can't wait to see my daughter tomorrow, as she's spent a couple of days with her dad. I'm so scared about moving out of my sisters and into my place, as I've always lived with my ex or family. Now it will be just me and my daughter in the new place and I'm up feeling so scared at the thought of living on my own. Is this normal? I feel silly about feeling scared as I'm nearly 27 years old and shouldn't be worried about living on my own. Any other single mums who felt scared at first to live alone?