I feel like I carry a lot of stress and worry that my friends, family and colleagues don't know, or know the full picture, so letting it out.
My dad died when I was a teenager, my mum last year. Both young, both dreadful cancer ravaged deaths.
I have been blessed with a wonderful DD, but have also had 5 miscarriages. I long for another child. Been to infertility, IVF, EPU know me well.
It's a lot of loss and sadness.
And my job is bloody awful. I hate every moment of it. I hate the stress and the pressure, it's well paid but I don't think enough to justify how awful it is.
I feel like I'm just getting by, waiting for it to get better.