I don't know who else to talk to...
I've been divorced for around five years; I have two children who spend time with both their Dad and me. For almost all of that time, I have had a physical health problem with my lady parts which has generally left me unable/too embarrassed to have sex. It's taken a lot of my confidence and left me painfully lonely. And I'm still quite young.
I'm so sad and so lonely. I think daily about the impact on my children and how unfair it is on them to live with such a sad Mum. I get so upset and so angry. I have tried so hard to focus on myself, meet friends, take up hobbies, keep working, keep fit, and start new relationships but it's hard as an adult and it's hard when so self-conscious of my 'problem'. No therapy/antidepressants are going to solve that and I feel like I'm running out of options. I think about dying daily, and sometimes when I'm really bad, I wish for things like car accidents to take me so my children don't have to grow up knowing I chose to leave them.