Want to curl up in a ball and disappear

[Strugglingalone]

I am really struggling with my anxiety and my thoughts. The urge to overdose is getting stronger again. I struggled end of last week but managed to feel more positive over the weekend, however today has really gone down hill.
I am completely overwhelmed by everything, too many changes in a short space of time and panicking about those but also about the thoughts in my head
I’ve reached out to mh services without much success so could just do with talking and trying to take my mind off things as I don’t know what else to do
Feel completely trapped and the thoughts are completely overwhelming, I’m scared. Other NHS avenues are not an option as ive been her so many time’s so know from experience they don’t help and I am treated like I don’t deserve their time or support so please don’t suggest that, I just need to be kept busy

Sorry things are rough right now.
Can you make or bake something? Take a walk?

Thanks for the response, I have now managed to eat something but nothing else. My anxiety was so bad when I posted I was literally paralysed, I couldn’t do anything

Struggling to control my thoughts and my distractions aren’t enough

I hope things are better for you today.

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