another day and night yesterday
20wks pg and quite certain i have lost my mind
dr's appointment tomo, which is good. tho' not sure what dr can do when pg. half of me loathe to take pills, as sure can't be good for bump. but other half knows that huge hormonal changes plus my previous record (treated as bipolar for long while, but been fine for years) means i might be toeing a dangerous line
know the stuff i have to do to feel better. basic CBT exercises, exercise itself, take things day by day, but just feel all i want to do is stop working which feels like root of all probs.
can't stop working cause v bad money probs (hom hum, could blame gambling prob and spending binges on bipolarity but know thats crap
oh well. off to see if its a full moon. that always makes me worse.
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