Just that really. I’ve had enough. I can’t be bothered and I think my family would be better off without me. I’m so miserable all the time I fly off the handle for no reason, shout at my kids and am just plain horrible sometimes. I don’t know how to change anything. I have no income of my own and no where to go. I have nobody I can talk to. I feel so alone and lost and all I can think is if I just end it everyone will be so much better off. Ive spent all evening google ways to die because I pretty sure I’ll even manage to make a mess of that