For the past year, my eating habits have been what I believe to be 'disordered'. I fast for 18 hours a day and am vegetarian. I will only eat certain foods, namely tomato soup, flatbread, guacamole, humous, chocolate and crisps. Occasionally I eat some cheese. I also run 5k at least three times a week, swim and do weights. This isn't about keeping my weight down. I am a healthy size 12, normal weight and not really bothered about being smaller/bigger/whatever so I don't really know how I have ended up here. I cook for my family but I never eat what I have made. I have just kind of stopped liking food altogether. The thought of sitting down to a 'proper meal', chilli and rice for example, makes me anxious and sick. Whilst I don't feel that this habit is much of an issue for me, I am very worried that I will pass on disordered eating habits to dd. She is still young at the moment but I do not want her to think this is a normal way of eating because I realise it is not but I just don't seem to be able to eat anything else. It's like the food switch in my head is turned to off and I just cba with it anymore. If I could choose to stay alive and healthy and at a healthy weight and never eat again, I would.