Advice for self destructive behaviour?

[mildlyunhinged]

I have a very happy life. Good husband, good prospects, generally pretty content with my day-to-day lifestyle. I just sometimes get this strong urge to be incredibly self destructive - get incredibly drunk, walk out into the rain and not come back for a few days, shag random people, go to clubs. I'm relatively young, so I guess that plays a part. It's not rational and it's not actually what I want (so please avoid saying "LTB" because it's not what I want, nor what I will be doing).

I am happy, I just want to know how to stop randomly feeling like fucking it all up. It's a self sabotage technique, I'm sure. Anybody got tips?

Well yes I would it's all quite normal to have these kind of urges. I didn't really manage to resist them that well when I was younger so not sure why I think I can provide advice But I suppose more welll adjusted people find healthier ways to channel energy and satisfy the urges for risk taking- exercise or sports or travelling or stuff like that. Some sort of project to keep yourself occupied. You could try some mindfulness as well - write yourself gratitude lists to keep yourself grounded.

Do you actually do any of that stuff or just think about it?

*I would say it's all quite normal

@Besom I did almost all of it when I was younger (and honestly, more & worse stuff). I've managed to pull myself away from it by totally changing my environment but sometimes I just get the feeling of being in my mid-teens and it being totally out of control.

I've cut most of it out. I don't have sex with people (including my husband, mostly for mostly mental health reasons) but I do drink a lot of alcohol and I'm overweight from eating disorder recovery.

Can't even distract myself because I'm in lockdown, and not doing well financially haha. What would I distract myself with?

I've read up on cbt and mindfulness techniques and found that it does help me with impulsivity and anxiety. Can also find free apps. Things on you tube. May not be for everyone but does help me when I do it.

Also I do yoga from you tube now which is calming and also get adrenaline hit off it. So whatever you do doesn't have to be expensive does it? Just finding some way to divert the impulses.

@besom I've done CBT in counselling before, and I might get into yoga. I'm feeling alright now, last night was just an occasional blip. Thank you for your advice though! xx