My friend committed suicide

[Leo89]

Hello everyone,
I had the shock today of finding out a close friend of mine had killed themselves, after a horrific break up last year. Myself and her both broke up with our fiancées, cancelled weddings, sold our homes and had quite brutal break ups with ex’s who moved on in just a few weeks, plastering their love online for everyone to see. I met her last week and she and me had always had a pact that we’d be there for eachother.

The news really has shook my world. I can’t eat, I just cry. I can’t believe it.

I’m so sorry @Leo89 . Going over every moment is natural - please make sure you get some support for yourself too. It wasn’t your fault.

Thank you everyone. Tomorrow would have been my wedding day and ironically the day we broke up. I can’t even cope with my own grief let alone this

I've been there too. I can only rationalise it in my head by believing my friend was really ill and couldn't be made better.
Try not to blame yourself for missing "signs" I believe it's common for some people to appear on top of the world just before suicide as they have made peace with this decision.
Sending you my best wishes.

Today is too much

I am so sorry. It is desperately sad.

I’m going to go to my doctors tomorrow and see if I can get some support. It’s all too much ontop of dealing with my own grief & tomorrow being what should of been my year anniversary

Here and thinking of you, @Leo89
I hope very much that the doctor can offer you some help

I am very sorry 💔💐
You were there for her, remember that. You were both doing your best. Hope today passes quickly for you OP x

Definitely get some support - it takes real strength to say "this is too much" so well done for recognising it. Keep talking, here and in real life, and don't let it feel like a something you have to deal with entirely alone.

Hi op, give yourself as much space as you need. Let friends know you might need to lean on them at random times. The support groups mentioned are good too. Counselling is a really good shout too . Be kind to yourself.

Thank you everyone.
I just find it so hard as today I’m off work, in a ball crying as I’m a year on from my break up and when I should have got married. I need time to process that. Then I have this horrific weight of knowing she just couldn’t get over her pain

Have you got some close who can be with you? I'm sorry you're hurting so much. ❤️

@firecracker69 I’m going to see my friend :). We already had it planned for today as she knew I’d struggle anyway x

i am so sorry for you. sometimes all the help in the world doesnt make a difference as these things are often a spur of the moment thing perhaps when something has tipped the balance; a photograph, a memory or just being overwhelmed by everything
sending you love and hugs

I feel so lost. I can’t believe she’s gone. I went out today and treated myself to a pedicure, I make out I’m fine and put my happy self on. I’m not. I want to be with my friend 😔 I want to know she’s ok

Take care of yourself, OP, and put yourself first.

Your friend is OK now, her pain is over.