I've been trying to write this post for a while but I don't know how.
In a nutshell I've managed well through lock down but it's now got to the stage where I can't cope.
I work from home so it now feels like I'm living in my office. My partner is on furlough and it's unlikely he will have a job to go back to. He is a self harmer and doesn't like to go outside.
I tried to ask him to come out for a coffee with me yesterday but he didn't want to go. I just went out on my own and tried to pass the time before I had to go home.
He just plays computer games all day.
I can't believe my life is like this now. I didn't even know life could be this bad which is why I wasn't able to stop it happening.