I am not me anymore

[pinky987]

I am so sad, I can’t function anymore.

Everything can cause anxiety, such as today there was something yellow on the tumble when cleaning so I think that everything that goes in there will now be ruined. Yesterday I thought I walked to close to a car with a dirty bonnet. Also a fly flew in the house and I think it will neat and make maggots etc etc.

I know all these thoughts are rational l, I can’t do anything about them.

I’m so unhappy and know that I am ruining my families lives by being like this but I can’t stop.

I don’t know what to do, I contacted a counsellor who did hypnotherapy but I’m unsure this is the right path to take. I don’t know what to do.

Scared to tell GP as I’ve only ever met one of them at my new particle and don’t know how I can tell them how I feel.

I want to be who I used to be.

OP you need to see your GP. You do not have a choice right now.

Please go and see your GP tomorrow if possible. This is an urgent case. In the meantime

Please speak to your GP, they really are there to help you. You’re GP won’t judge you or be shocked/surprised by what you tell him/her. Please be really honest with them so they fully understand how you’re feeling.
At the moment you’ll probably have a telephone appointment which not being able to see them might make it easier. I’m having counselling by phone and think I prefer it.

Hi I’m suffering from really bad with emotional numbness I just can’t be myself anymore I can’t live my boyfriend or my family without think either they are better off if I’m just not in the house or not with them i have been stressed so much with COVID-19 lost my job no money stressing about my acne in may I actually suffered with really bad anxiety attacks to the point where it felt like someone had the ha da around my throat 24/7 I recently lost my nana as well last year I rang the doctors and got put on sertraline and was the worst few weeks of my le I lost so much weight with being sick and stuff I have no been out on 20mg of Citalopram and I’m really scared of taking it reading all the reviews online will it actually help me feel that love again that’s numb inside for friends family and my boyfriend I wake up every day feeling so anxious I hate it

Well I contacted the gp who told me to make a self referral for therapy and he said lots of people are struggling at the moment so there will be a long wait and that was that.

Oh goodness, I’m so sorry that your GP didn’t come through for you. I did a self referral and was told it would be a maximum of 18 weeks wait. I then paid for counselling as I really needed to speak to someone and literally 4 weeks after the 1st referral I had a call to offer me some counselling. Because I’d already started with someone I didn’t take it up. Do the referral and hopefully the wait won’t be too long xx

@July56 thank you. I am wondering whether to go private as well but finding it hard to decide who to go to.

OP, if you are working right now, does your employer offer occupational health? They may be able to help. I feel for you, please be kind to yourself. Have you tried googling 'NHS mental health support' or similar, I found some support (a bit, anyway) that way, I am planning on pursuing the leads it gave. I really hope you find what you need. I am sorry your GP didn't help. Please don't give up looking, there is a lot out there and what you need is out there too, waiting for you to find it.