OCD

[danascully96]

I used to suffer terrible from intrusive thoughts until I discovered the remarkable power of facing my fears... but now I feel as though my OCD has morphed. I now suffer from limerence, especially with people I consider motherly. I tend to then idolize them, so I’ll spend a long time daydreaming about different scenarios that frequently involve them somehow helping me in some way (not romantic). I even would go wandering around the streets at night listening to music in an effort to get lost in my thoughts. I’m not sure if my recklessness was because of my OCD or something more serious? It’s hard for me to focus as a result. Anyone relate?

How did you face your fears to solve your intrustive thoughts? I could use a bit of help with this. I struggle around objects that could accidentally hurt people or animals and i have all these kind of "final destination" type images in my head that can be difficult to shut out.

I suffered from POCD and instead of trying to push the thoughts out, I would instead let them enter my brain and then I wouldn’t react. Afterwards, the thoughts went away bc they no longer had power over me. OCD attacks what we love most — and of you’re sensitive to children or animals, it will latch onto that if you let your fear about being a monster known. Do you see a therapist? If so, that could help. I would tell you that if you’re afraid of hurting an animal, go and pick it up. Or just pet it. Start to understand the control you have over your own body and that thoughts are just thoughts. They don’t always mean anything, and if we get trapped in our brains, we won’t ever really know who we are. We have to have faith in ourselves — for instance, if I hold a baby, I’m afraid I’m going to accidentally drop it. However, once I hold the baby and feel it’s weight, I realize that I can handle the situation as well as anyone around me. The call of the void is scary, but don’t let it suck you in. The possibility of hurting others is always there, but you have as much control as anyone else.

This video changed my life: m.youtube.com/watch?v=_Wss6W11bPM

Oh i know i would never ever hurt anything and the images arent of me causing it, i just imagine if an accident occurred or someone else hurt them or something. I just remind myself its not real its not going to happen. Just for a split second the image is quite vivid in my mind but i guess i just need to face it, and whilst its so unpleasant its just an image. I just cant bear the idea of others being in pain.

Thanks il watch that tomorrow

As for your situation, maybe find something else to focus on? Something in the here and now that occupies your senses. Its easy to get lost in thought isnt it.
Can you channel your walks with music to daytime exercise?

I found this for you since it might specifically address your OCD as we suffer a bit differently: www.google.com/amp/s/over-coming-ocd.com/2019/12/10/the-call-of-the-void/amp/

I can go on daytime walks — in fact, I do. I just get embarrassed easily when I feel like I’m out in the open lol and I still go back home and pace a lot.