I need to talk, is anyone there? Wish my life was over

[Piecespolly]

I’m not coping. I’m having counselling, I have friends. My family are a bit shit sometimes but they are there. But I’m not ok.

I can’t sleep. Been to gp. I can’t stop crying. I feel like I have no future. I lost my partner and my pregnancy last year. This year I’ve all but lost my job and on reduced pay. I’ve not met anyone new and it makes me feel like my chances for a family are gone.

I’ve given up. I’m supposed to be working now and I can’t even get out of the bed. I take anti depressants. Nothing works. I am broken.

as others have said it will not always be like this. it will seem impossible to even imagine a future and i hear you when you say doing so makes you feel sick. but i promise you that as painful as it may be, waiting it out will produce results. the fact you came here for help shows that deep down you want to give it a try. i really urge you to try and drink water, eat and generally just look after yourself. even managing to take care of yourself at home can produce results! try and fake a smile to yourself as well... may seem ridiculous but it can help even if it just makes you feel silly. might be the wrong time to suggest this too but masturbation can really help with depression. xx

I hope you are ok @Piecespolly
Did you go back and see your gp?
When did you start taking the antidepressants? X

@Piecespolly How are you feeling tonight?

People do care @Piecespolly Everyone here does. You are not the problem. Your parents are.

Please talk to someone

@Piecespolly

Thanks for the messages. I cannot see a way forward at all. I’m just sitting here. Haven’t moved for hours or eaten and i just feel frozen. Everything feels dreadful.

Thank you for replying xx

I felt like you do when my son died. I slept for months with my eyes wide open and tears streamed out. I did not eat. I wanted to die.

During the day I stayed in bed. I went out at night to meet my boy but he never showed up. My family did not understand the level of grief and neither did I to be honest.

You are young. I am not. I have got used to living with grief and know I will never see my boy again. It's fucking horrible.

The only thing I can say to you is that you have probably reached a sort of rock bottom and by coming on here (which is brave) you have taken a baby step

I'm sorry you lost your baby. Your bloke ?.. Well he probably did you a favour because he sounds like a coward to me.

It's not that your family don't care in situations like this, it's more that they don't know what to do or say, when talking is therapy of a sort.

Have you thought of the Samaritans? I never did but maybe they might just help a little.

Just know that people on here are listening ?

Hugs

@Anordinarymum I'm so sorry for your loss. What unimaginable pain you must have felt, yet you are strong enough to reach out here.

[quote excelledyourself]@Anordinarymum I'm so sorry for your loss. What unimaginable pain you must have felt, yet you are strong enough to reach out here. [/quote]
Thank you for that. It's been almost three years and I still feel pain and sadness but I have got used to living with it and I'm alright now in that I don't wish to die and do enjoy certain aspects of life.

Time helps. You find a place in your head for things which is good because you can put them away and get them out again when you want to. x x