That horrible flat feeling

[Workinprogress30]

I’ve slept for 12 hours and have woken up feeling very flat. My usual morning anxiety isn’t there but I just feel numb. Isn’t it awful when you just can’t feel/see the joy in anything? Not even my dd is making me smile. I spend my 30th birthday weekend crying on the bathroom floor as I didn’t want to spend it the same way I did my 20s. Just so desperately want to be happy.

Not a question, just wanted to share and send love to anyone feeling the same. Don’t think the weather is helping today

Spent*

I can relate to this. Are you currently on medication?

Yes been on mirtazapine for 4 weeks. How are you doing @Vampyhooch?

Urgh yes. Brain clouds. It’s so shit and utterly exhausting when you need to put ‘game face’ on for children or work. I’m not to bad today but last week was full of these days. Then I feel like such a bitch for not appreciating what I have... oh the joys of shit mental health.
Sending love and hugs (and a big kick in the knob for your depression).

@Workinprogress30

Yes been on mirtazapine for 4 weeks. How are you doing *@Vampyhooch*?

I’ve just started on sertraline this week. could it be a side effect of the med your on?

Thank you @Onekidnoclue just need to get through today
@Vampyhooch it could be. Some days I just feel like I don’t have the energy to fight through it

@Workinprogress30 do you also feel like you lack the closeness and love to those close to you? This is a problem for me at the moment and I’m assuming part of the depression. Just feel so flat like I have no feelings

@Vampyhooch yes I do feel that. I know from past experience it makes me change how I feel about people so I’m always careful not to make rash decisions when I am depressed

I feel flat most of the time. I'm on venlafaxine and I swear it's a side effect of the drug. How are you finding mirtazapine?

I feel really low at the moment and teary. Just been talking to the Dr. I can go on a list for councilling or take meds. Neither are going to help me anytime soon so I feel sad. I just can't settle and feel really interested in going out. Whenever I have to leave the house it's a chore and I am pushing myself to do it for my kids. I just don't enjoy life anymore.

@Theoandelsie

I feel really low at the moment and teary. Just been talking to the Dr. I can go on a list for councilling or take meds. Neither are going to help me anytime soon so I feel sad. I just can't settle and feel really interested in going out. Whenever I have to leave the house it's a chore and I am pushing myself to do it for my kids. I just don't enjoy life anymore.

I’m so sorry. Depression is an utter bastard. Please don’t dismiss the speed at which counselling or meds could have an impact. I honestly felt better just having the prescription in my hand as I thought there was a little bit of hope. Sending hugs. X