I’ve been posting a bit on here recently about my anxiety and depression (not medicated currently).
I’ve spent the last few weeks ringing my doctors telling them it’s getting worse and I feel I need help. Been chasing them the last couple of weeks to see if they’ve made a decision on whether I can start meds but the doctor dealing with me is on holiday.
I’m not sure how much longer I can cope like this. Each day is a battle. I am starting to feel like I don’t want to be here anymore because life just doesn’t feel worth it for me anymore when I wake up feeling like this everyday. Struggling through each day til bedtime.
I feel like I’ll never get the old me back. I used to be so happy. And got lots to be happy about - partner, 3 beautiful kids. A home a car etc. But I feel numb. I feel paralysed with fear. I can’t feel anything other than sadness.
I don’t know what to do or where to turn. I’ve never felt like this in my life. I don’t want to die but I can’t carry on living like this everyday either. My kids deserve better. They need a mum like the one I used to be :(