Cause I can’t remember a time when I wasn’t plagued by depression. Every fucking day is a battle. I’ve been severely depressed for the last 10 years now (I’m 36). I had a couple of good years when I was 24/25 but other than that there was always depression. I know the cause of it (child loss) and I know it’s not something I can cure cause you can never overcome the loss of a child. I’ve had therapy and a variety of pills (none work) and I’ve come to the realisation that I will never be ok again and that one day I will probably die through suicide 