I just can’t

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So I’ve had 2/3 lumps under my right jaw for months now and one also on the back of my neck. I’ve been to the dr during Lockdown and she’s told me because they aren’t over 2cm I’ve just to wait and see basically. I’ve also found a lump (rubbery) on my groin/pubic area since. I have no other symptoms other than this.
But.. for the last 18 months I’ve been going through horrible severe stomach pains (I’ve had alll the anti acids, checked and treated helicobacter, an endoscopy and an mrcp plus gallbladder scan. All clear) they are the worse pains in the world to the point I think I’m having a heart attack or something. I don’t know if this would also be a symptom of lymphoma or something on its own but these things have me feeling anxious every single day. I have two little boys 3&4 and I feel like I cannot even focus or be a mother because I’m terrified of what’s going on inside me. I can’t go back to the dr (covid) they only offer telephone appts but I just can’t sit and wait I’m so terrified. I do have health anxiety I think but this is something else the pain and obvious lumps are shaking me to the core and I just don’t know how to cope if they aren’t gonna refer me to be checked what can I do? I’m just absolutely terrified for my life everyday and wanna cry when I look at my kids

Anyone

Can you see / speak to a different gp either in the practice or in a different practice?
Maybe even have a private gp appointment at a local private clinic if you can afford to.
It would be worth it to put your mind at rest.

I think the only road out of the fear is to face it, believe me I totally understand. Can you get a family member to advocate for you? Does your GP know about your mental health issues?

Can you go to a walk in clinic or medical centre? If you ring 111 they may be able to get you a face to face appointment somewhere (I managed this today)

Go to A&E. Please get checked ASAP. I had Lymphoma when my ds was 5. No swellings or lumps. The main symptoms were terrible fatigue, very, very low blood count and a change in bowel habits along with terrible stomach pains. Sadly, nobody on here is able to diagnose you. You need to see a dr. It may be nothing but you must seek help. Please do. Wishing you well.

Also, if you've experienced this for 18 months it's unlikely to be serious if it hasn't worsened. Within 2 months of developing symptoms I started treatment because my symptoms had increased dramatically in that short time.

How did u get diagnosed? They won’t listen to me at all.

Please keep going back to Drs - see a different GP if you can. Whilst we can't diagnose you, you need try to get it checked out. I say this as someone who had a couple of lumps for a few months, which I thought was just glandular. I'm now being treated for mantle cell lymphoma.

Even when I was referred my GP didn't think it was anything but was just following the pathway to sure.

How did I get reffered though mines are just saying no. I was checked quickly during lockdown and feel I’ve just been fobbed off

Try and see a different GP if you can. Ask for an urgent referral - you should be seen by a specialist at the hospital within 2 weeks.

My lumps were in my neck where my glands would normally flare and then at the base of my skull/top of the neck. I saw a head/neck specialist and they were the ones who sent me for PET scan. I had no other symptoms other than a little tiredness so my diagnosis came out fo the blue.

They told me no 😭 I honestly just wanna cry and beg them

I had similar and was referred for an ultrasound. It was all clear luckily. I would try to see a different doctor as the impact this is having on your mental health is too great. God luck x

I’m trying I really am I’ve been in and out of the dr for over a year and I think they just fob me off now when I have a new concern but I feel I. My gut something ain’t right. I hope I’m wrong obviously

Can you afford to go privately? A private consultation is around £200 and scans range from £750-£1K. They can do specialist blood tests too. You would be able to see someone very quickly too.

If it has been going on for a year, it is much LESS likely to be something very serious.

Even if it were to turn out to be what you are fearing most, you need to be resilient and in a good place to deal with it.
Please access whatever counselling/support services are available in your area (lots of MH stuff is done online and by phone these days).

As I said on your other thread, please contact your GP again.
I am glad you have started a thread in MH rather than 'Life limiting Illness' though

I can’t even afford a consultation right now

Register with a different GP in a different practice. While I'm sure this isn't what you fear due to the length of time, you really need to know one way or the other.

I'm sorry you're feeling as you are. I've been there with health anxiety, and it started with one little lump, but my approach was to bury my head for years until I just couldn't anymore. When I did finally pluck up the courage, I was prescribed propanolol while I was waiting on the test results back. I got the all clear and my symptoms (of which there were many - lumps, bruising, rashes, burning sensations, stomach issues and more) disappeared within no time. It was the strangest thing - a vicious circle where I had made myself ill.

Anyway, please do whatever you can to see another GP.

Best of luck x

Don't go to A&E. This is neither an accident nor an emergency and they are overworked as it is. They don't have lump specialists on tap. That's not what A&E is for.

Having said that, I do think you need to get your lumps checked sooner rather than later, although if you don't trust your GP's verdict, will you trust anyone else's sufficiently enough to give you the peace of mind you need?