Why don’t people understand?

[Vampyhooch]

Just feeling even more low than normal. Been to see my parents today. Told them I’m still awaiting news from the doctors about whether I can start antidepressants because of a heart arrhythmia they need to check with cardiology. My mum then gave me a load of crap saying ‘oh you need to pull yourself together, your the only one who can make yourself feel better. Medication isn’t gonna suddenly change anything. I wish my kids were normal’.

For someone who is meant to be supportive she’s now made me feel so much worse. Doesn’t she think if I had a choice of feeling better and it was under my control I would do it? I’ve tried and it’s made no difference.

@ComeOnBabyPopMyBubble

This is going to sound so shit and bitchy, and I'm sorry.

But stop looking for support,validation and reassurance where there isn't any. She doesn't get it. She probably doesn't even want to because she wants "normal" kids and whatever other bullshit. She isn't who you need and you have to accept that.

Take what she gives if you want it/need and see her for what she is. Otherwise you just keep hurting yourself and wasting precious energy .

You're drowning, trying again and again to reach a life saver that had a puncture in it , won't do you any good no matter how safe you think it should be .

You're better off threading water and wait for the life guards(friends,GP,meds,therapy , support groups etc).

That doesn’t sound bitchy at all. It makes total sense. Thank you for being honest and saying how it is. I respect that totally and know your right.

I need to focus my energy on the people who are going to be beneficial in helping me overcome this.

At least the way she has been hasn’t damaged me totally. I’m a totally different mother to the one she is. I love my children with all that I am and Infact probably worry about them more than I should but they’re my whole world. 🌍

I’m a totally different mother to the one she is. I love my children with all that I am and Infact probably worry about them more than I should but they’re my whole world.

Remember this in your darkest days. Somehow, despite it all you're miles ahead.