What is the point

[Nightowl92]

I genuinely don’t enjoy my life I’m never really truly happy every day I’m exhausted and tired. I have a lot of good things in my life but I just never seem to feel fully happy. I have a lot of people around me and I’m literally im so tired of pretending to be alright I’m exhausted. I feel stuck like I have to live so I don’t cause anyone pain but I’m in constant pain.

Don’t pretend to be alright. It’s not good. I did for years and it was t until I showed how I really felt I got any support. I’m happy most days now but do still get pretty low lows.

Don’t pretend. Call your GP and be honest. Seek help OP.

Ask for help OP - talking about how you feel will help

But this is the problem I have no reason to feel the way I do. I have a great family, boyfriend, I live by the sea, I have a good job that I just got promoted in, my finances are finally stable for once in my life. But I’m just not happy. I’m just tired all the time all I want to do is sleep. I’M constantly anxious and worrying about everybody else and what they think of me. I don’t want to be around people anymore because I’ve lost the energy to even hold a conversation and now I feel like I’m coming across rude or boring. I just don’t know anymore it’s like it’s becoming more and more tiring by the day. I don’t want to cause concern here because like I said I won’t do anything because there’s too many people around me that need and I wouldn’t want them to feel they could of done anything. But I just don’t know what I’m suppose to do. I can’t see how counselling will help when I don’t know what’s wrong, I can’t see how pills will help either when it’s all in my head. It’s like I’m in a constant battle with myself.

And then I think to myself I’m 27 years old. I don’t want kids because I’m to tired to look after myself and if I live until I’m 70 I have another 43 years of my life of feeling like this and I’m already so so tired from it. I know people are starting to already get pissed off with my absence from events and my lack of texting back and I don’t know how much longer it will be before my friends and boyfriend get tired of me.

This is the problem. You have anxiety and depression. You don’t feel worthy of the help. You don’t feel that you should feel like this. I was in a high powered job and married very happily (still am in both) when I had the same feelings you describe I felt like people would judge me, felt like I could never do anything right, just judged myself on everything and felt so tired and devolved. Counselling does help or even just opening up to those around you.

Also I’m so tired and mentally drained now it’s affecting my work. It’s like my body is there but my mind is not anymore.

I have depression. The reason? A chemical imbalance in my brain. I need medication. With it I’m fine. Without it I feel just like you. Call your GP. Tomorrow.

Great post there Wolfie.
That's exactly right, you don't a 'reason' to be depressed.
Please see your gp, the correct meds will make a world of difference.
Take care of yourself

Don't NEED a reason sorry

I’m really sorry you’re feeling like you are.
Have you seen your GP at all? If you can please try to open up to him/her about how you’re feeling. Hopefully they’ll do a blood test to check nothing else is going on. You say you’re so drained and tired which is symptomatic of numerous things including an under active thyroid which can make you feel very low.

From what you say it sounds like you’re very depressed and the reason why not being obvious is compounding how you feel. Depression is exhausting and if you’ve felt like it for a while it’s over taken you to a point where everything feels pointless and hopeless and difficult. I understand what you say about counselling as you don’t know why you’re feeling like you are. Maybe being able to talk to someone it would help you to work that out. Having someone who’s there to support you and listen without judging you is a huge help.

I hope you find the strength to see your GP and that you get help and support from there.