Can someone talk to me

[Soscared29]

I just feel so low and like I have had enough. I had a really horrible time triggered from a break up about 6 years ago and I have never really recovered.
I now have a new dp and amazing little girl but I am in constant mental torture. I have lost all my confidence, self-esteem, self worth..you name it. I have nothing left in me. I compare myself to other people constantly and I am just so tired of being me. I feel suicidal but I don’t want to leave my daughter. I have been here before and come through the other side (albeit still not happy) but this time I feel like I have no fight left. Please someone tell me how I can get myself right. I really have tried so so hard.

I'm sorry I don't have the answers that you need but I didn't want to ignore your post. I'd recommend calling the Samaritans, they are always there to listen. The number is 116 123 and its free.

I am so sorry you are feeling like this
Do you have a friend you can call or message? If not, I would second ilovefridays advice of ringing the Samaritans and speak to your GP in the morning about getting some help.
Lockdown has been brutal enough for those not going through trauma so it must be awful for you.
You sound exhausted. Please try and get some rest. You are loved now by your little girl and your dp and that's no accident. They love you because you are loveable and you deserve that.