I'm not sure if this in the right place, but couldn't think of anywhere else!
Not a massive issue, but I have always struggled with my nerves, and potentially my confidence? I am confident in who I am, but the minute I'm with a group of people I just fall apart. I have lots of friends, but they are all very similar to me and so we all meet one to one, rather than a large group of us.
The few times I am in a large group I can just feel myself die inside. I start shaking and can barely talk or hold a conversation. My mind goes blank and I say stupid things or try to act like I'm a bit dull on purpose to get a laugh because I'm so nervous. I also just can't do anything in front of lots of people. Like if I had to cook, answer a question, do a manoeuvre in the car etc in front of a couple of people, I would just totally f*ck it up. Every single time. Purely because I'm shitting my pants that people are watching or potentially judging. I have never had a good interview because I literally can't talk, I start stuttering etc. It's so embarrassing sometimes!!
How do I fix my nerves when I'm in groups or in front of people?!