What to say to ring for help?

[Heavenights]

I've NC for this.

I need to ring doctors about my anxieties and to get help because its got really bad throughout this pandemic.

I had the virus in March (suspected as mass tested wasn't available) and was reasonably okay but I have found the last 3.5 months so unbeatable mentally.

Even though, there is a big push and it's more publicised nowadays, I just feel so alone. Apart from my partner, I have no friends and I've gone from working unsociable long hours to still working from home and I've only been out twice to see people in that time.

I booked annual leave this weekend to spend and maybe see people to find out that something was happening but partner was invited and I couldn't. It just sent me over the edge.

Sorry for rambling, just needed to give a bit of a back story.

I just don't know what to say to them tomorrow because I get worried I'm going to be fobbed off.

I don’t think they’ll fob you off. Could you say what you’ve said here and add a bit more detail about how you’re affected eg if you’re having panic attacks, worrying a lot etc?

I always feel like something bad is going to happen constantly.

I always feel like everyone hates me and that nobody cares,
Constantly think I'm annoying everyone when I speak because I can get very excited (I do have learning difficulties too).
I always feel like my partner is going to leave,
I always feel like I'm going to lose my job and lose my flat (we lost house when I was younger due to repossession).
I always worry about time and not having enough time.
I just feel like I'm a burden.

Just every single day its a constant struggle.

That's how I feel but then I feel sad for feeling like that because I feel like I'm being unreasonable when there is others worse off than me.