Unhappy/depressed how to fix this

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I wonder if anyone can relate.

I have felt low for quite a while now, lack of enthusiasm, just feeling like I’m living but not happy like I use to be. If I laugh then after that moment has gone then straightaway I sit back into a sad feeding. I feel empty, if I’m happy it never really lasts. I think about the past a lot like 10 years ago when I was so young and care free and never felt like this.

I have dealt with grief and pnd in the last year.
I feel like most of my problems are to do with dh. No matter how hard we or I try we just don’t seem to last happy for long. We just don’t get on and I just look at him as someone who never supported me and therefore made me feel worse. It’s like i do love him but I also day dream a lot of meeting someone else.

I feel like if we split up I’m going to be a single mother and most likely not happy because it will be so hard. If I stay with him I seem to also be unhappy. I feel like there is no way out. I don’t even know how to make this relationship feel better to me. I don’t want me children to not have a mother and father living with them either.

I'm so sorry, OP. Do you think you could benefit from talking to your GP, or arranging counselling to talk things through? If you were interested in counselling, this website below is offering online counselling for around £44 per 50 mins (It's an irish website so says 50 euros on the website, but they help people regardless of location). All the best

www.myclinic.ie/counselling

Difficult to say without more info....but agree that you should speak to your GP. He will be able to differentiate between being unhappy in a relationship......and being depressed (these are very different things requiring very different solutions). Don't suffer in silence....if it is depression it won't just go away.....you will need some support.x

Sending my thoughts as I relate to your post. It's a difficult place to be and feel isn't it when it feels like a long rollercoaster of up and down between the relationship. And especially when children are in the equation. We have four young ones.