Ever since I was a kid I've had this complex/fear of being yelled at or being told off. I was always a good kid because the thought of having someone raise their voice or get mad at me would really scare me. This has carried on through my teenage years (never smoked, drank, went out or copied anything anyone else was doing due to fear) and now still present as a 31 year old. I have a panic attack and cry if someone raises their voice to me/near me or if I'm being somehow told off, whether it be at work or my husband not liking something I do, even my husband getting frustrated at something that has nothing to do with me.
I'm wondering if it stems from my stepdads angry outbursts as a child. One time in particular I remember, I was about 6 and it was hot so didn't want to walk to school, I kicked up a bit of a fuss so he got mad and threw my baby siblings pram across the garden in a rage. I think I ended up running to a family members house. There were other incidents where he would rage and shout like this, over small things too like putting dishes in the kitchen or not putting things away. Could this be the cause of my fear? It still effects me.