I have battled with depression for as long as I can remember. I feel as if all the bad choices in my life are the cause to how I feel. I am an extremely emphatic person and very sensitive to everything.
Does anyone else just feel like a slave in their emotions and head that no1 can help you? I have a small child and I miscarries my 2nd not long ago and a year ago went through a separation with my partner of 10 years who I share my child with. We are together again, however, I feel like I can never make him or anyone around me happy. I feel so worthless and useless and I have to fake smile about how I really feel.
I lack trust in ever corner and just feel as if I can't approach anyone about anything.
I have tried therapy and counsellors etc but I feel so empty sometimes.
I did attempt suicide in my younger years and though about it a lot for a long time. However, since my child and my family I just can't do that to them so I would never attempt it again.
I just want to talk with someone who doesn't know me and just rant rant rant ...