I realise I may sound pathetic, but my mental health problems are making what should be an easy task extremely difficult.
I have PTSD, postnatal depression and panic disorder. All diagnosed. I'm on beta blockers in the day and perscribed sedatives at night. Without those I wouldn't sleep. I've had counselling and EMDR which hasn't helped much.
My eldest has recently started nursery and I'm not coping with the morning rush. I have to get her and her baby sibling ready, sort her things, walk 1.2 miles both ways after being out of the door by 8 am.
Due to my sleeping tablets in unable to wake up properly so am rushing around like a zombie, no time for breakfast myself.
I have a husband but he can't help with this as he works nights in a very stressful job and isn't home by the time I need to leave.
I've asked whether DD can start slightly later enabling me to leave baby at home with dad and cut out some of the mad rush, but they would prefer she starts with the rest of the children.
I'm uber sensitive to any perceived critism from the nursery and that is only adding to things.
The change to my routine has caused me alot of additional stress and anxiety and I'm dreading doing this there times a week.
I just can't sustain this.
I then feel pathetic because people manage to do this every day with no drama, and I'd be one of those if it weren't for my mental health.
DD doesn't need to go, I'm a SAHM, but we thought the socialization would be good for her, and it is 
Not sure what I wanted from posting I just needed to get it out