Over the last 2 & 1/2 years I’ve suffered a few health problems the worst being breast cancer last year. It came as a huge shock but was treatable and I was through everything very quickly.
I’m very lucky, I know that but having several health problems all of which came from no where has been hard to deal with.
When the cancer treatment finished I thought everything would go back to normal and it would all be a distant memory but I can’t seem to move on. I’ve been an emotional mess which is slowly improving but over recent months feels more like depression. What I’m confused about is that I don’t feel like it all the time. I have better days than others, days I feel completely numb to it and then days all I can feel is the emotional pain. I keep busy, making sure I’m not doing nothing, even in lockdown, I don’t lay in bed all day and most of the time I’m functioning.
I am still very sad about what’s happened, at times not coping, can’t stop thinking about it all still, not sleeping very much, have very little interest in anything, my concentration is very poor and find little enjoyment in anything. I don’t understand why I’m not moving on as I don’t have cancer anymore and the other condition is under control. That frustration just makes things worse.
Can you be depressed but still able to plod through life and able to keep things going? Is it wrong to still be upset about this?