Body dysmorphic disorder and feeling horrible. Pregnancy issues

[BDDandpregnancydontmix]

I’ve had BDD virtually all my life it’s a struggle.
I think it stemmed from general low self esteem and emotional abuse in childhood/teen years where my appearance was a big focus of taunting.

I never felt better and therapy didn’t work as I was still in that environment. I avoid mirrors photos etc and meeting people it’s been awful

Even as a size 8/10 trying so hard to look ok I couldn’t and hated myself
Pregnancy has caused a MASSIVE weight gain 5 stone already at 28 weeks and I am so upset
I know I look dreadful and dh tries to be nice but I can tell he doesn’t fancy me. It’s making me unwell well more unwell I feel worse than ever and I feel like I’m at my lowest point with this ever.

Oh lovely I didn't want to read and run!

Some people do put on a lot when pregnant, however at 28 weeks you still have 12 weeks to focus on eating well and gentle exercise. That in itself will help you somewhat.

Please try and be kind to yourself, your body is growing a whole new person!

Please speak to your gp again. Sending love and hugs to you

I think it’s a combination of feeling so sick and the medication they gave me included steroids plus I eat tons of plain stuff like toast and biscuits, plain croissants and bananas etc as they help but I’m so huge I could cry