I wish these feelings would just go away. I can’t cope.

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Just before lockdown I was going to finally go and seek help for the my feelings. But I still haven’t managed to do this.

I feel so nervous all the time and it’s unbearable. From the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep, I ruminate about so many things and fear the worst.

Recently I have been dwelling on my past and how I wish I could change certain things.
I also find happy memories painful. Because they’re just that, memories... and I’ll never get those times back.
I worry about the future. The next 10 years will see a lot changes such as my children not being little anymore.

I’m going to get a notebook and just write everything down. There’s so much going on in my head every single day that it overwhelms me and affects my quality of life so much. I think I just need to unpick every single thought and express it so I can articulate it across to other people properly.

This is anxiety. Please speak to a GP. They won't minimise your feelings, but maybe teach you some techniques to help ease the worry, or medication.

Do you think I’d be able to get a phone appointment with my GP for this?

I think (not to hijack your thread op) lockdown has taught me what anxiety is. With so little distraction I have to recognise its rumbles. I honestly think I was have not been aware of it before, but have been thinking like this for years. I have downloaded some breathing and mindfullness apps to try.

Learned to recognise

If you are in your forties it's probably just perimenopause. Hrt solves that problem.

Changeyname40 yes lockdown definitely draws your attention to it more because you’re less busy. I’m not enjoying lockdown and I’m dreading life going back to normal too. So I can’t win really. I hope the apps help you a little bit.

NoHardSell not quite there yet. 30 here.

Hi op I can totally relate, I sit and ruminate over everything and anything constantly, and I also feel like the best days are behind me and I'm not even 30 yet. Anxiety is dreadful and I catastrophise everything too. Cbt has helped me in the past and I've recently been prescribed diazepam to take the edge of things when really bad as I've had a loss recently. Do speak to your gp and try to remember these feelings will pass xx