Dissociative Disorders / Complex Trauma Support Thread

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Anyone else with either of these diagnoses?

I don't know any IRL with either and I could really do with connecting to other people who may sort of understand what it is like to have either of these.

I have Complex Trauma and DID. I am really struggling with having to shield during lockdown. Everything is very chaotic at the moment.

I have mild DID I have a complex history of sexual abuse and when the sexually abusive encounter becomes too traumatic I completely black out. In early stages I float above my body and watch what's happening I always wonder whether I would prefer to remember or not.

TRIGGER WARNING

I once woke up after blacking out for over 12 hours I was in a homeless B and B at the time and all over the room pools in matress and covers drips on the floor and piles of blood running down the toilet and piled up in the shower. My ex partner was sat with his head in his hands crying he claimed I had gone out the night before and came back like this.

I was bleeding from both my vagina and anus I went to my mums who took me to hospital my ex constantly crying which really kissed my mum off as she said it was about me not him.

Police were called I explained I had no memory while my ex still sat there crying and she sent everyone out of the room and tried convincing me to press charges against my ex telling me next time he could kill me I was confused I had no memory and while he was prone to sexually abusing me he had spent whole day crying obviously he was upset at what had happened and therefore it couldn't have been him.

I was given large amounts of diazepam and given stitches while under gas and air then discharged I went back to B and B to have the owner screaming at me over all the blood in the room that she had to clean up she made me pay £200 for damages and called me a dirty pig. I was heartbroken then when I got into my room my ex took my hands in his crying and thanked me for not telling police on him, I was confused at first then absolutely devastated I just went to sleep and didn't speak for about a week to anyone so confused and upset. I have other instances where I blacked out but that's the most noted one.

Also thought that I would say I am also shielding and struggling i started shielding two weeks before lockdown and have lost track of how long I have been in luckily my dc keep things interesting and keep me going but I am struggling mentally with shielding.

I have c-ptsd after sexual trauma and general violence.
Still trying to get my head around things.

I have CPTSD too

I'll join you on the complex trauma bench.

No idea what support looks like though.

I have a mix of PTSD (seems to be a question mark as to whether it's 'simple' or complex) and am currently having what my psychiatrist is calling a significant episode of depersonalisation. In some ways, I don't mind it as it allows me to function on the surface and look after my DS but it's odd to be so marooned from your own existence for a prolonged period of time.

I have C-PTSD as well. I also dissociate but not to the extent where I black out. I just feel outside my body as though I am not really there and am watching it all from somewhere else. It hasn't happened to me very often.

I struggle in that I am easily triggered and have a lot of flashbacks. I'm currently having weekly Gestalt therapy, doing a mindful mediation course, I write as well so I've been keeping myself busy.

I haven't really spoken to anyone in months apart from one aunt and my therapist. I am estranged from my immediate family as they are abusive. I am the family scapegoat.

I'm sorry to hear others are struggling.

Is everyone here with a cptsd diagnosis from the U.K.? A Dr recently told me she couldn't diagnose it as it's not in the dsm/nice guidelines

It's not in DSM yet but it is in ICD--11.

Unfortunately lots of doctors only refer to dsm and this would make me question their belief in the condition tbh.

I've had it labelled officially by a clinical psychologist backed up by a consultant psychiatrist.

I have CPTSD but I currently have an excellent therapist (who is a clinical psychologist) who is really helping me with it.