I hate Covid19 so much

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I'm so lonely and I'm finding it so hard to go on. I live alone and have very few friends. I don't have a job. Before COVID arrived I got some social interaction from talking to people in shops and at bus stops etc. Now I have nothing. I can't even stroke a passerby's dog- in case they might worry I'm transferring the virus. Even The Samaritans are not picking up the phone tonight.....of course the recorded message explains that this is due to covid19.

The pain I feel from lockdown is okay because my life is one of the least valuable lives in the uk.

I'm sorry you're having a tough time, it is a very lonely situation. I'm a single mum and I really love the interactions I have chatting to people when I am out walking my dog. Those small, everyday connections make my day and I really miss them.

Please don't feel that you are not valuable, you really are, and even though you are alone, you're not the only one who is struggling, so many people are finding it tough.

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Oh wow thank you so much for your reply...it really means a lot to me. I'm so glad that you can relate. I literally didn't appreciate these tiny every day interactions. They sort of made life worthwhile and meaningful. The government talk about relaxing restrictions and getting big things going again like work/industry etc. But it's the tiniest every day things that for some of us mean everything. It is so hard. I cry a lot. It's a terrible endurance test 😥

@tulipsaremyfave
But thank you for replying. I'm just venting really. I know nobody can change things but it does help to feel I'm not alone and that others understand the immense value of these little everyday interactions and connections

I’m so sorry. Can you at least meet a friend now outside? It’s a lifesaver. Or do something new on zoom ? Or volunteer locally?

It is really a strange time at the moment and it feels very un-natural. Please value yourself, you've probably made loads of people feel happier with a smile or a few words. I've started talking to people in the supermarket ques.

A really funny show or movie helps me feel better and walking as fast as I can for 30 mins or so and noticing how green the leaves on the tree are cheers me up.😊

I know how difficult it is. I didn’t realise how important those small interactions actually are to mental health until all this started. I got on a tram today for the first time in weeks - I can’t believe how comforted I felt by being on public transport - such a lovely feeling of normality!

Please hold on to the thought that this is temporary, and will pass. I find watching a funny or heartwarming series on Netflix helps a bit (nothing too serious or sad). Things will get better

OP - I completely understand how you feel. It's horrible for people who don't know a lot of people to talk to and who rely on that contact - whether it be from a carer, a cleaner, people in shops. Perhaps there are some online forums for things you're interested in which you could chat to people on for now? It's been weeks since I've seen anyone and it's sad to say but I miss just being able to have a quick polite conversation with the supermarket delivery guy because that's still an interaction with someone

Hi there!

This situation is awful isn't it? For a long time I was pretty lonely, and when this thing broke, I really thought about how I would have coped with this had I been in the same situation I was in a few years ago. I think I would have drank myself into an oblivion. I have often been thinking about people like yourself. On the radio there's lots of shout out for key workers - fair enough. But my shout out is to you, and people like you, because I know how isolating life can be without a pandemic, so to be getting through each day with this and the uncertainty ahead requires a great deal of strength, and good on you for coming on here and reaching out. This is an awful situation, but it won't be here for long... the governement needs the country up and running, so hang on in there, you've gotten this far!

I've just recently gotten into house plants (I've no garden) - it's very theraputic. I also recommend Jason Stephenson and Michael Sealey for guided meditation on youtube! Very relaxing! I'd also suggest that if things are bad for you, then do speak to your Doctor.

Best wishes to you!!