I'm not coping very well.

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I am working from home. The kids are doing bits of school work here and there. I can't sleep properly. I find it impossible to leave the house and every day I am becoming more and more depressed.
I have tried to find the positives. I have spent time doing up the house and got a fair chunk of DIY done but the over riding feeling of despair is horrible.
The worst thing is I am also dreading going back to work. Before lockdown I was physically and mentally exhausted. I thought this would be a chance to sort myself out but I can't even do that. I don't know how to. I just feel like a complete mess and I don't know where to start on sorting it all out.

The best place to start is to focus on how you can make yourself feel better today. Dont think about the long term right now or bombard yourself with extravagant ways to resolve it all. Just take it as today.
I find it easier if I dont tell myself I should be feeling happy, motivated or be on top of everything. I'm just letting myself go through the motions, the less pressure I put on myself the easier it all seems to feel (even if I still feel like shit I dont then beat myself up for feeling that way).

Thanks for your reply.

I could really do with my kids pulling their weight around the house, since we have all been home there has been so much more mess but no one will help with it. The house is getting me down.

I asked the kids to help with the dishes and it has resulted in a massive argument. There seem to be loads of dishes so I said if we each did a sink full then it would share the job out fairly. After threatening to switch the internet off, my son has agreed to do it but I don't feel it should take that level of negotiation to get a contribution towards the mess they have made. My daughter will probably weasel out like she always does. My son is now in a vile mood :(
I have been sorting through old paperwork inbetween sending work emails so that the living room is clutter free.
They want to live in a nice home with nice things but never want to make any effort to make it that way.

I need to take better care of myself. I havent got dressed in days :(

Hi, no advice but I am feeling the same way. Barely left the house for weeks despite being allowed to. I'm finding it difficult to concentrate on work, can't do much with the kids as no motivation. My anxiety is through the roof and I can't eat properly. It's awful

Purple I do feel for you in your situation, I also am in lockdown and recently lost my husband, engulfed in grief at the moment, but one day the sun will shine through, and I hope your situation improves. Be strong!

longtimemarried I'm so sorry for your loss, I probably sound ridiculous harping on about such an insignificant problem when others are going through so much worse, I just don't really have any one in real life I can talk to.
Everything feels like so much effort at the moment, even when I break it down into manageable chunks. As predicted my daughter is refusing to take any share in the dishes even though she made most of them. I put them in to soak for her, all she had to do was wash them but no.......
I am going to try and focus my energy on cooking something nice for dinner. I feel done in :(