Everything going wrong

[escapetimeplease]

Hi . I had ptsd a while back and have more or less recovered. I'm a frontline nhs worker.
I'm married to someone always making negative comments about me. Tonight he's been really annoying and it's sending me into meltdown wanting to disappear. Please can you talk me down

I'm listening

So am I ..

I just feel like I want to shut down and disappear. Offline off e mail no contact with anyone just shut down

Then do it. Take a bit of time for yourself. We all need our own company once in a while. Just don't make it permanent. Give yourself the day or the evening to recharge.

It's not so much I really want that as I feel I want to escape

Can you escape?
May I ask what the PTSD relates to...? Him??

Maybe you can plan but not book, a holiday for yourself. Do you have any one in real life you can talk to..
I live alone and there have been times a while back I even wanted to run away from myself.

I'm going into shutdown

I feel awful today

Do you have any other family you could go and take sone time out with?

My family are here. I'm cooking fir them.

How are you feeling today? Is it a better day?
I feel awful, been crying all morning, screaming at my kids, I'm a horrible mother. I just can't wait for the evening for this day to be over

Hi winter . Well I was in work today and in there I felt somewhat better but still feel the same after work. I wish I could go to the beach to see the sea. I wish I didn't have responsibilities and could just disappear.

Sorry to hear you have had such a bad day. Have you got any tv etc planned for tonight ?

Thanks, in bed now just scrolling through mumsnet. Picked myself up after my crying, shouting episode. Made decent lunch, cleaned bathrooms. Still my mood was rather low. Hoping for good sleep (i do have a 4 months old though) and better day tomorrow.

Has your husband been treating you nicely today?