This is a long one so hope it's ok. Basically I was always an anxious child an only child. When I was 19 I got married and had my first baby. At the same time my mum had breast cancer age 52. She had it again age 68. It's always been a fear of mine and since about 34 I've had many cysts which I've had drained checked etc. I'm 44 now and had about three mammograms last one Nov 19. Clear. So I've always known that my mums half aunt had breast cancer I think twice. I've never really thought much of it until last week when I found out her daughter my mums half cousin had it at 59. Then the same week I found out my mums full cousin has it at the moment age 71. I'm absolutely petrified. When I try to rationally go through things in my head I panic. Then I remembered my mum telling me my gran had a lump removed when she was in her 50s I think. It wasn't cancer and my mum said it definitely definitely wasn't. However I'm terrified it was they just didn't realize it was the 1960s etc. so now im convinced it's just a matter of time and my anxiety is through the roof. I'm just a wreck it's the most awful feeling and I'm so tired and exhausted feeling like this. Sorry for long post