Can't express my emotions

[brendonuriesgoldjacket]

Have struggled with this all my life. Just realised tonight I really need to get some help with this.
Basically if I get upset or angry about something, I "feel" the emotion really strongly: I will cry my eyes out and/or feel rage. But if someone asks me what is wrong, all my thoughts feel mixed up and I can't actually verbalise what is wrong. If I try to say what's wrong, it usually end up coming out wrong, or in dribs and drabs and I then feel annoyed with myself for being unable to say how I feel. It's not a case of me feeling that I don't want confrontation - I will happily entertain that if necessary!
It has happened tonight and it's so frustrating - I just can't organise my thoughts. Anyone else get this? Any tips?

Write it out.

Draw flow charts of what leads to what and why this is wrong and what it leads to.

I've done that several times at bad times. Get a big piece of paper and just start in the middle. Don't worry if it gets messy. Things will loop back on themselves. And you will have to go back and insert things. Break things down into bite-sized chinks. Get those dribs and drabs lined up and ordered.

It might not help for you but it works for me.

Thank you - I've tried writing it in the past but normally as a list and then I get more muddled. A flow chart type thing seems a good idea. It's hard because my DH will now hound me about what's wrong and I won't have the opportunity to write anything down this evening.
I just wish I wasn't like this. Feel like I could just explode but can't say why.

Is it inside angry about the way you feel in your body internally ? Ie not relaxed
Sometimes I feel so anxious/ pent up with bodily symptoms it feels like I’m full adrenaline, that won’t calm down. I then get the irrational thoughts that I can’t switch off so that I feel relaxed.
I hate that, I have had it since waking up this morning!! and here I am looking for help on mh mumsnet to see maybe how others handle it.

I wonder if you're expecting a bit too much from your emotional expression...emotions are by nature random, mixed up, not necessarily prepared to be written out or talked about in any organised way. I wonder if you have tried just drawing or scribbling instead of trying to write it out? I would explain to your DH that you can't tell him exactly what's wrong and you're working through it yourself and will chat when you have it a bit clearer.