I am a SAHM, and I took my two primary aged dc out of school 2 weeks before they closed, I have a 7 month old baby who is exclusively breastfed (eats food at meal times also obvs) and feeds often in the night as we bedshare...initially I was really enjoying the novelty of having the kids at home, I was working hard to do home Ed with them between babies naps (I lie down with baby during her naps too as she feeds throughout her naps!!). DH has been off work for 3 weeks now too and he is doing more than his fair share with housework and kids and he is lovely to be around, makes me laugh and very helpful - loved having him at home despite the money worries of him not being able to work.
I've been doing yoga every day for two weeks now and joined Davinas website, doing her workouts three times a week too when DH has baby for me/takes her out for a walk etc. Trying to eat healthily and have lost half a stone.
So WHY for the last week do I feel like I cannot stand to be around my two older dc and dh anymore? I am so moody and snappy with them now. I have stopped home Ed pretty much completely. I have no patience, I don't want to be in the lounge with them anymore (we have a small two bed plus two dogs and a cat) , the clutter the crap everywhere that we can't keep on top of.
I feel awful because I'm making DH and the kids days shit with my moods. I don't know what is going on with me or how to fix this.
I am already on 100mg sertraline for depression and this has always been more than sufficient to keep me stable.
Just needed a rant more than anything.