If anyone has been through the same situation as me, how did you heal from fear after child abuse.
I grew up in a lone parent family with a sadistic, insulting and abusive parent. I spent alot of my time as a child, running quickly to attention. If I wasn't there quick enough. I would be screamed at.
Also if I did chores, I had to do it exactly right, or I would be screamed at and insulted for hours.
As an adult, I live with my flatmate. If he calls me from another room, I immediately scramble to my feet, knock things over in my nervousness and rush there with ny head bowed. Also if I do a chore in the flat, I am so nervous about doing it wrong that my hand shakes and I expect my flatmate to shout at me. He has remarked that I am an anxious person but he doesn't know the extent that it went on
This is when I am with everyone. When I am with collegaues at work they have said to me that I am very jumpy. If she pulls back her chair from a desk, I jump.
When I lived with a boyfriend in the past, he also remarked, that I was very afraid of doing things wrong.
In groups I am also anxious and afraid of people shouting at me. I am so sick of being anxious of people, I really want to heal.
Has anyone been through this in the past, and were able to heal? Please dont say counselling because I tried it and it didnt work