I’m just so tired

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I’m tired of hating myself and second guessing everything I say like my whole life is a movie. I’m an awful person and everyone would be so much better off without me. I’m an awful daughter, mother and wife despite always trying so hard. If I wasn’t here my husband could meet a normal person - he’s even said he should take the children because I’m mad like my mother and I’m ruining them. I am. It’s true. I’m such a massive try hard and I put so much energy in but I’m still awful. I’m very black white, I’m either ecstatic or the world is ending and I can’t hide it. It’s exhausting.

I’ve just read your thread and I suffer from real anxiety I say sorry to the furniture when I bump into it! Have you seen a doctor about how your feeling? Because they could do a telephone consultation and you only have to tell him/her what you feel comfortable telling them. Can I ask if your partner is emotionally abusive like does he put you down about things? If he’s saying things like he’s going to take your children because your ‘mad’ like your mother it sounds like he’s putting you down 😢 I’m sorry for how your feeling I just wonder if the second guessing could be from being put down. Please phone the doctor even just to talk to them, no one will take your children unless they’re at real risk of emotional or physical harm. I’m thinking about you, take care x

Sorry your feeling this way. I don't know why you feel like this but I bet it's all in your head and not true at all. Awful people don't care that there awful. @LgSm2006 advice is good. Speak to a doctor and consider whether what your husband is saying to you is acceptable. Good luck with everything.